Gains

It has taken me a few days to be able to discuss my weigh-in this past Friday.  Sadly, I gained weight!  TWO POUND GAIN!  I was mortified and deeply upset... 

I feel like I should be honest with my myself and my readers.  The weight loss battle isn't easy physically or emotionally.  I have tried to stay upbeat on this blog, but I was really disappointed.  I got on the scale and I felt my heart sink.  I started crying.  Poor Ray didn't know what to do with me.  He just keep saying that it was okay.  But in reality it wasn't.  That two pounds took me three weeks to lose.  I worked damn hard for those two pounds and I was pissed.  So I continued to cry... and cry some more.  I cried until I realized I was late for work and that it would be a stupid reason to take a day off.  

I picked myself back up and went to work.  I was sad most of the day and tried not to think of the scale.  However, when I got home I couldn't go to the gym because I was furious.  I was mad at the scale and pissed with my trainer for ditching me the day before.  It was definitely not my day.  

So what did I do... ATE and DRANK!  Not a great plan for losing weight.